( putting under a cut because slight spoilers for Final Fantasy V gameplay )
( putting under a cut because slight spoilers for Final Fantasy V gameplay )
Words: 33,672 words
Fandom: 镇魂 | Guardian (TV 2018)
Relationships: Weilan, Chuguo
Characters: Shen Wei, Zhao Yunlan, Zhao Xinci, Shen Xi, Zhang Shi, Da Qing, Chu Shuzhi, Guo Changcheng, Zhu Hong, SID team, Fu You
Additional tags: Fix-It, Follow-on from episode 17, Multiple POVs, Story of the gun, Loss of Shen Xi
Summary: Zhao Yunlan's first visit to Dixing reveals the reason for his mother's death and the origin of his father's magic gun. Fu You had a plan.
I got up at 3:15AM and I got back to my apartment at about 10:30. I'm not sure how easy sleep's going to come tonight, which means I'm really very thankful I called everything off tomorrow.
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2. The best thing is that I drafted my casefic exchange fic and it's off to beta. Huzzah!
3. Minisculus started swimming lessons. Today I had a zoom parents' meeting with his soccer team for the fall and ordered his new uniform. Minor and his father are planning a trip to Jacksonville, Florida for a track meet in 2 weeks. He has a local meet on Saturday. We all went to the YMCA this morning together.
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1. What curse word do you use the most?
This will require some observation. Damn. Maybe? I think 'shitty' is the only adjective appropriate for some things. Likewise, with 'jackass.' My Southern accent definitely comes out stronger with curse words.
2. Do you own an iPod?
No.
3. What person on your flist do you talk to the most?
if you mean 'communicate with':
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4. What time is your alarm clock set to?
6:40 pm on Tuesdays and 12:40 pm on Sundays for meditation circle
5. Do you still remember the first person you kissed?
Yes. Time, place, circumstance. I was 15. We were only 'going together' (that was the phrase) for about 3 months. I think I saw him once in a mall the year he went to university (he was a year older) but it was a brief sighting. I have tried googling him a couple of times over the years, but he either changed his name or died or is off the grid. No clue what happened to him.
How about Ancient Roman Bath Ambiance for a change?
I've now read all the finalist novels for the 2025 Hugo Awards. The trouble is, I read some of these books when they first came out last year. Still. I'm happy to share my impressions if people are interested.
Which of the 2025 finalists are you most interested in having me write up?
Alien Clay by Adrian Tchaikovsky
3 (75.0%)
The Ministry of Time by Kaliane Bradley
1 (25.0%)
Service Model by Adrian Tchaikovsky
1 (25.0%)
Someone You Can Build a Nest In by John Wiswell
2 (50.0%)
A Sorceress Comes to Call by T. Kingfisher
1 (25.0%)
The Tainted Cup by Robert Jackson Bennett
3 (75.0%)
But sometimes it can also be absolutely lovely. A few days ago I ordered some CDs--including one from one of my all time favorite groups--from the website of a trad musician and left a quick comment in the delivery instructions box to the effect of Hey, if you ever have you guys's fourth CD back in stock, please let me know.
I hit "purchase", watched the transaction go through, and went about my evening.
A day later, an email with the musician's name in the "sender" field popped up in my inbox during an extremely trying afternoon. Surely not, I thought.
But guys. Guys. It was. It was a real, an-actual-human-sat-down-and-wrote-this email from the actual musician expressing surprise and pleasure that someone had bought these CDs, giving some updates about the group (including that one of the members had passed away two years ago--a fact I'd already known, but hearing it directly from this person who was his bandmate and friend...😭😭), and musing about the music the group had made together. The email contained both proper punctuation and grammar and proper emoji usage. The email also contained a proof of shipping photo of the packaged CDs in which the slightly messy interior of this person's car is visible. The whole thing is about as far away from social media influencer presentation as you can get and I cannot express how delightful I find this.
I replied saying that I'd been really sad to hear of the group member's passing and how much I absolutely loved their albums. He sent a second email thanking me again, adding that the group had never felt successful (PS: 😱) and that it really meant something whenever someone said they enjoyed their music.
And, just. It would be hard to overstate how 🤩🤩🤩 I am over this entire situation. I have been listening to this group for 27 years and this individual's other projects for almost as long. This group has had a HUGE influence on my own playing, stylistically and in terms of repertoire. Two of their CDs are in my in my top 25 most-played albums of all time. On top of that, this person is widely regarded as one of the best players of his instrument, in this genre, in the world. And it turns he is also a genuine and down-to-earth human being. I would never in a million years have imagined I would have any kind of interaction with him, let alone that he would act like I'm the one doing him a favor by appreciating the art he has helped put out into the world.
Seriously. This has made my week and will quite possibly be one of the high points of this entire year. So yeah. Sometimes life is wonderful.
これで以上です。
The air today went from "walking around in soup" to "walking around in an oven"
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I followed Ally Wilkes from her short fiction into her debut novel All the White Spaces (2022) and I mean it as a recommendation when I say that I came for the queer polar horror and stayed for the bildungsroman. Externally, it follows the disintegration of an ill-fated Antarctic expedition over the austral year of 1920 as it comes under the traditional strains of weather, misfortune, the supernatural, mistrust. Internally, it follows the discovery of its seventeen-year-old trans stowaway that masculinity comes in more flavors than the imperial ideal he has construed from war cemeteries and boy's own magazines, that he can even invent the kind of man he wants to be instead of fitting himself fossil-cast into a lost shape. No one in the novel describes their identity off the cutting edge of the twenty-first century; the narrative resists an obvious romantic pairing in favor of one of the less conventional nonsexual alliances I enjoy so much. I am predictably a partisan of the expedition's chief scientific officer, whose conscientious objection during the still-raw war casts him as a coward on a good day, a fifth columnist on a bad, and makes no effort to make himself liked either way. It has great ice and dark and queerness and since I deal with heat waves arctically, I am pleased to report that it holds up to re-read.
Kevin Adams' A Crossword War (2018) is a folk album about Bletchley Park, a thing I appreciate existing.
At first, I thought about creating a list of my top five Indigo Girls songs, but I think that would be prohibitively challenging: there are just too many of them! Instead, here are my favorite tracks from their first five albums – the ones that helped to form the soundtrack of my childhood.
1. “Strange Fire” (Strange Fire, 1987)
I first heard this song on the concert album 1200 Curfews. I remember reading somewhere – maybe in the liner notes for that CD, maybe from a fan – that Amy wrote this song about her relationship with the Christian Church, but I don’t think that interpretation is necessary in order to appreciate the powerful lyrics, the melody, or the way that the harmonies build throughout.
2. “Secure Yourself” (Indigo Girls, 1989)
I think that this is one of the songs that I learned from Older Sister before I heard the recorded version. The final line, “Now we all are chosen ones,” resonated deeply with me as a young, socially awkward reader and storyteller who had tired very quickly of Chosen One stories. (“Closer to Fine,” which opens the same album, is probably more well-known, definitely more fun to sing, and I love that one, too. I just don’t love it in the same way.)
3. “Hand Me Downs” (Nomads Indians Saints, 1990)
No question about this one. The urgency and background drumbeat that kicks in on “...and you’ve become the saint somehow” makes me catch my breath every time.
4. “Ghost” (Rites of Passage, 1992)
Or, as my mom calls it almost every time she brings it up, “that one about the Mississippi being mighty.” (“Galileo” and “Love Will “Come To You” are also strong contenders from the same album.)
5. “Dead Man’s Hill” (Swamp Ophelia, 1994)
Swamp Ophelia has such a strong concentration of songs that I absolutely adore, that my choice is almost random, based on what I’ve been listening to the most recently.
If you’re an Indigo Girls fan, what are some of your favorites? Whether you are or not, do you recall any songs that captured your heart or imagination before you knew who originally performed them? What are they?
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My group members stepped up at the last minute and helped out with the paper, so I turned that in on Thursday. I also explicitly abdicated all responsibility for putting together the five-minutes-each video recordings for the group presentation. I recorded that last night, realised this morning that it was actually under five minutes but also how to fix it, re-recorded it, and sent it off. And just now I hit Submit Quiz on the final.
I'm ... done? Grades will be out at some point to confirm that I did in fact pass, both "sufficient unto graduation" and "sufficient unto my own arbitrary standard". (Pretty sure I did, but grades for this class have been Not Terribly Forthcoming, so there's the possibility of an unpleasant surprise. Not at all likely, but possible.)
Onward. After credential: chop wood, carry water. Time to get (more) serious about ye jobhunt.
You cannot know what happens next.
This is your check-in post for today. The poll will be open from midnight Universal or Zulu Time (8pm Eastern Time) on Tuesday, June 24, to midnight on Wednesday, June 25. (8pm Eastern Time).
How are you doing?
I am OK.
14 (73.7%)
I am not OK, but don't need help right now.
5 (26.3%)
I could use some help.
0 (0.0%)
How many other humans live with you?
I am living single.
7 (36.8%)
One other person.
8 (42.1%)
More than one other person.
4 (21.1%)
Please, talk about how things are going for you in the comments, ask for advice or help if you need it, or just discuss whatever you feel like.
- On related note, sure wish On Swift Horses would get onto streaming! Like for free with subscription, not just VOD like it is now.
- Some highlights from the very serious Oasis discussion forum:
Liam looked especially handsome in the video for 'Don't Go Away'. Elegantly wasted.
Why does it matter [what Noel looks like]? Being pretty is Liam's job.
- The Dead Meat Podcast is covering the entire Saw series, movie by movie. I am so excited. First episode of Hot Saw Summer is here. I have already rewatched Saw II in preparation for the next episode, which comes out tomorrow.
- I am eyeing the Terrible Temperature Troubles flash exchange, although I really shouldn't, because I still need to beat my Hurt/Comfort Ex bus pass into shape, and I have to Summer of Horror treats to work on. Meanwhile I'm also tempted by Battleship, which I said I'd never do again...
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•Can't Get it Up:
fingertips puttin' on a show
Band of Brothers, Liebgott/Webster, Rated Explicit
David has a thing for Joe's hands. Joe has a thing for David's strength. It's supposed to be easy for them in Austria, on the back end of the war, except Joe can't get it up.
•Porn-Based Expectations:
Hesitation Dribble
Watcher Entertainment RPF, Shane/Ryan, Rated Explicit
The technique called hesitation dribble involves dribbling with speed, then slowing down for a split-second to make your opponent think you’re going to stop. [x]
Ryan is a point guard for his college basketball team. Shane finally makes it out to watch a game, and is properly impressed.
•Came Too Soon: Coming Soon (haha)
•Capsaicin problems: TBD
•Subdrop: TBD
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I found out through VolunteerMatch that Tropes & Trifles was looking for people to restock books in little free library "book deserts." So, this afternoon, I drove out, got my box of books, and set out with the Little Free Library app.
I had never installed the LFL app before. I had lost the "confirm your email" email and so I wasn't able to take notes as I drove around (I have since rectified that) and so I mostly used the app for its ability to give me GPS directions to various LFL. I still have half a box yet to deliver. I'll try to remember to take pictures when I go out driving tomorrow!
I'm now very tired, but what fun!
I didn't hate watching it, but nor do I need to watch it again.
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Brokeback Mountain (2005). Two cowboys herd sheep on a mountainside and start a decades-long affair. I got to see this at the theater for the 20-year anniversary, yay. It was pretty good! Heath Ledger was fantastic as Ennis, and the scenery was gorgeous.
That said, I had a lot of quibbles. Truthfully, realistic drama is not my genre even when you make it gay, so feel free to chalk most of my complaints up to that if you want.
That said, there were two key transition points that felt really abrupt and underdeveloped (the first time they have sex, and the reunion after four years apart). I also feel like either Gyllenhaal didn't get enough to work with, or he did not do a great job at working with what he had. It felt like the whole movie Ledger was showing and Gyllenhaal was telling. Ultimately, though, I think my main problem with this movie is I just about never vibe with the "decades of vignettes" drama subgenre. It always feels like the story is spread too thin, and it does here, too.
I do see the criticism about this being too much about tragic gays or whatever. There's no such thing as the universal queer experience, and no one work can capture What It Means To Be Queer, but even so this feels like a particularly narrow and bleak perspective.
Overall probably won't become one of my favorites, but I'm glad I've finally seen it.